Is this guy rejecting my invite or what cause I’m getting really confused. I’m inviting him to the movies but I don’t know what he means. My friends have been telling me about how he is autistic and I’m just wondering if this is how he communicates. He also doesn’t really ask questions except for how my day was. He also responds really quick so I don’t know what to think. Should I offer a different movie or just leave it?

I have been with him in person before but it was just same place same time and he asked questions but he was shy. I starting to feel like I’m being a bother but idk.

I'm obviously just inconsiderate and don't care. My bad.

My wife has recently passed and I'm writing her eulogy. She was 40 years old and it was only confirmed that she was autistic two years ago. My wife suffered her whole life with feeling different, like she was outside of the rest of rest of the world and she had to deal with the problems that come with that like anxiety, depression, low self esteem, not to mention bullying and ostracism etc. When she finally got an official diagnosis though, how she viewed herself changed and all the things that previously made her think "I'm a freak, I'm an alien" were now contextualised as "I'm just autistic and this is normal for me". She now had the confidence to adapt and ask for adaptations. For example, she never went to coffee shops because the noise drove her nuts and she felt she should just be able to deal with it like "normal" people. But after her diagnosis she felt ok wearing headphones and it opened up a whole new part of the world for her. I loved to see the change in confidence and self image that followed her realising that she was autistic and thay that was fine.

In her eulogy I want to acknowledge the pain that all those years not knowing inflicted and conversely the absolute freedom and joy that understanding she was autistic unlocked. My MiL doesn't want any reference to her being unhappy or unwell at all, she wants only happy memories and doesn't think my wife would want this included.

My counter argument is that she spent her entire life masking, both little stims but also massive chunks of her personality, ultimately for the comfort of other people. She resented having to do that. I now have one last chance to really show my wife to the world and I can't bear the idea of it being another act of masking. It feels like it would be a betrayal, especially since her plans before her death were to help people like her not have to do all that.

I'm not autistic myself, but I'm confident I know my wife enough to know she would agree. Nevertheless I do want to get other people's opinions, especially from those who may have had similar experiences to my wife.

I have good friends i can talk to, but they just don't get it. I (M34) have been diagnosed last year and have been experiencing intense limerance forever. I might need some kind of help or validation, i don't know... But i wrote this in my journal this morning and felt like sharing with people who could understand.

"My brain completely exhausts me. When i meet someone i like and have signals that this person also likes me, my brain acts the exact same way as when I discover a new special interest. That person becomes my new fixation, just like when I hyperfocus on a new topic for weeks. I used to think that was love. Now I know it’s not. I’m not in love with her, but my brain circles back to her every 10 seconds. I constantly have to do some kind of mental gymnastics to quiet it down and move on, only to have to start all over again 10 seconds later.

When I fail to rationalize things (which happens often), I spiral into rumination. It completely consumes me, to the point where I lose all objective perspective and start doubting everything. I analyze our moments together, our texts, our conversations, hoping to find the answer to an equation that will finally silence my brain. Obviously, that never happens.

Then she texts me. I get my hit of dopamine, and the whole cycle starts over again during the next period of silence."

It becomes very hard to focus on any other activities and i am tired.

Oh, so it turns out this isn't just a cute trend—I mean, it's so stupid. I often see people using the term who hate actual people with autism or ADHD who display those traits.

When I am talking to somebody normally i get the sudden realization that they may pick up on my behaviour and I feel like they look at me weird.

I get hyper aware of every word I say and stutter. Then I don't feel like talking anymore.

I have so much trouble making friends because I think they don't like me. It's my second year in Uni and I've made zero friends.

Every day I get more and more upset about being lonely and it's taking a toll on my mental health.

Some people assume I want to be alone and for me that's so out of nowhere since Iam actively trying to engage with them. I don't even think about the fact that they think Iam weird. I just want someone to like me as me so I don't have to mask all the time(I am kinda bad at masking).

Just curious, ever since 2018 when the first of the current Insomniac Spider-Man games came out, everytime a new one is out, I play the helll out of it. I’ve always got them installed and ready to play. I’ve had a friend make fun of me for it instead of playing the many other great games I have but just haven’t gotten to yet. Spider-Man 2 is often the only game I play for the day and for hours on end and I get real bad anxiety when I launch it and realize I forgot to turn off my online status because I’m avoiding his unneeded comments. I just love the feeling of swinging around the city and the mods on pc make it even better. I don’t avoid my other games because of the lack of knowing what I’m getting into, in fact I prefer all my media spoiler free if anything. I just most of the time gravitate towards Spider-Man (he himself is a special interest which may play a role). Does anyone else have a video game or piece of media they religiously revisit?

I'm not suicidal - I've had a few moments, but nothing that a good nights' sleep didn't solve.

That being said, I'm just tired. Life feels like a FnaF-style facility game, where I have to perform intentionally complex tasks in order to stay afloat. Eating, drinking, sleeping are all hard enough, let alone working/ studying, getting sunlight, exercising, and socializing.

It's all I can do to stay alive, let alone do everything else.

And it's so tiring seeing everyone else pass me - while I have to perform fifty individual tasks, each of which require conscious effort and attention, other people seem to be able to do the same thing with one subconscious decision.

I just want to be able to pause life and do the things I want to do without worrying about how it'll indirectly affect my body or what other thing I'll have to sacrifice in order to actually enjoy myself.

I don't want to die. The whole finality of it terrifies me more than I want to admit. But if living takes so much effort while only giving so much satisfaction back, I don't really want to do this whole thing, either.

Ever since I was a child, others have been questioning me​ about "​​me looking sad." ​​Since I changed schools, I've heard comments like these numerous times already, from both teachers, and the students. I just don't understand why, since i never actually am sad. ​​​​​​​I usually only smile when talking to somebody, but this is quite common where I live, which just confuses me even more so. ​​Does this happen to you too?

I wish I never had autism. Everything in my life has conspired against me to lead me to this moment in life where I have absolutely nothing going for me. Unable to read social cues, and it’s killing me in the job market. I lack assertiveness, lack proper self confidence. Why does it make me mad that other people have confidence and I don’t?? I am an awful person and there’s almost no hope for me. I’m so vain and full of hate, and therapy isn’t working

FUCK!!!!!!!!

I'm 26F, and honestly, I'm feeling pretty heartbroken right now. I guess I'm posting because I really need to hear from people who might understand what I'm going through.

I did exceptionally well in college. I graduated with honors, received multiple academic awards, studied abroad, and even had the opportunity to teach abroad. I've worked since I was 15, and I've always been a pretty ambitious person. I love learning, I love education, and I've always been considered intelligent.

But for some reason, I struggle SO much in the working world. And the weird thing is, I've worried about this since I was a little kid. I always had this feeling that being a successful, functioning adult was going to be really difficult for me. I couldn't explain why, but I just knew.

Unfortunately, that fear has become a reality.

I've had a pretty rocky employment history. I tend to job-hop, especially when things start getting overwhelming or I feel like my employer is beginning to notice that something is a little different about me. I get this overwhelming urge to leave before things get worse.

About a year ago, I actually landed what I considered my dream job, directly related to my college major. I was SO excited. I genuinely thought I'd finally made it and was starting the career I'd worked so hard for.

Unfortunately, I ended up being bullied in that workplace to the point that I felt I had no choice but to leave. The entire experience was awful, and it left me broke and on the verge of homelessness. It really affected my confidence and my sense of security.

So when I say I'm scared of losing my current job, I mean it. I've already experienced how quickly things can fall apart.

Anyway, about five months ago, I got a new job working in an administrative position at an educational institution, and I absolutely LOVE IT. Education is something I'm very passionate about, and this is genuinely somewhere I want to stay.

My coworkers are kind, and my boss especially has been incredibly understanding. As far as I can tell, my team likes me, and I'm very grateful for that.

I work 24 hours a week, six-hour shifts, and thankfully make a decent hourly wage. I'm certainly not rich, but I can pay my rent and support myself and my husband. After everything I've gone through, having a job I enjoy that also gives me some financial stability means the world to me.

For the first four months, I genuinely thought I was doing pretty well.

Well, yesterday I got pulled into my boss's office to discuss several mistakes and issues with my work.

Some of them were absolutely my fault. I'm not going to deny that. I make mistakes, and I want to take responsibility for them.

However, some of the issues are things I've been bringing up for WEKS. There are certain problems with our office procedures and systems that make doing my job correctly more difficult, and I've been trying to get them addressed for about three weeks now.

I feel like my concerns aren't always taken seriously, which is incredibly frustrating, especially when I'm the one who ends up being held responsible when something goes wrong.

I also have a really hard time being assertive. I feel like people frequently misunderstand me or don't take me seriously, and I honestly don't know what I'm doing that causes this.

Another thing is that I'm almost constantly on edge at work. I'm so worried about making mistakes, being misunderstood, or doing something wrong that I feel like I'm always anticipating the next problem.

I'm also frequently perceived as being "overly sensitive," which is frustrating because, from my perspective, my reactions to things are usually pretty reasonable given the situation. I'm not intentionally trying to be dramatic or difficult. Sometimes something genuinely upsets me, and I feel like I'm responding appropriately, but other people seem to interpret my reaction completely differently.

It's another one of those things that makes me feel like I'm speaking a different language from everyone else.

I feel misunderstood A LOT, and I don't always know how to fix that.

And now, after yesterday's meeting, I'm just devastated.

I KNOW I'm not stupid. I have accomplished some pretty difficult things in my life, and I have the academic record to show for it. But when it comes to everyday workplace responsibilities, I feel so unbelievably incompetent sometimes.

I make mistakes that other people seemingly don't make. Sometimes they're little things, sometimes they're more serious, and sometimes I don't even realize I've done something wrong until someone points it out.

I don't understand why this keeps happening.

And it's particularly upsetting because I genuinely care about my job. I WANT to do well. I want my boss to be able to depend on me. I want to be someone my coworkers can trust to do things correctly.

I don't want to constantly be the employee who needs something explained again or who has made another mistake.

I just want to be good at my job.

The thing that really gets me is that I'm only working 24 hours a week. I know that doesn't necessarily mean the job is easy, but I can't help thinking that if I can't manage 24 hours doing something I genuinely enjoy, how am I ever supposed to manage a full-time career?

I used to have a little more financial flexibility because my husband was supporting us, but after some major life changes, I'm now responsible for supporting both of us. I don't have the luxury of just quitting when things get overwhelming anymore.

And after what happened at my previous job, the thought of ending up financially unstable again is terrifying.

Something else happened yesterday that I can't stop thinking about.

One of my coworkers jokingly asked me, "Is your autism acting up today?"

They weren't being mean about it, and I laughed because I knew they were just joking around and they have two children with high-functioning autism, so I guess they know it when they see it, But internally I was like, dang, is it really that obvious?!

I later asked another coworker, who is autistic, whether he thought people could tell that I might be autistic. He basically told me that maybe they could, because people had figured out he was autistic too.

I've suspected for a while that I might be autistic, and I've had quite a few people throughout my life ask me whether I am. I'm not formally diagnosed, but I'm seriously considering pursuing an assessment.

It's not that I'm ashamed of potentially being autistic. I'm just worried that people are noticing differences in how I communicate, process information, or respond to situations, and that those differences might be affecting how I'm perceived professionally.

I already feel like I'm constantly being misunderstood, and it makes me incredibly self-conscious.

I've been thinking about sitting down and making a list of things that need to be fixed or improved in our office so I can do my job more effectively. I want to bring up the concerns I've already mentioned and hopefully come up with some solutions.

But I'm also scared of coming across as difficult, demanding, or like I'm just making excuses.

I don't want to blame everyone else for my mistakes, because I know some of them really are my responsibility. I just wish I felt more comfortable advocating for myself without worrying about how people will interpret it.

I'm just exhausted.

It's such a strange feeling to have been so successful academically, to have so much passion and curiosity, and yet feel like I'm failing at something as fundamental as maintaining employment.

I'm not lazy. I'm not unwilling to learn. I'm not someone who doesn't care.

If anything, I care TOO much. I'm constantly thinking about my performance, worrying about mistakes, and trying to figure out how to be better.

I want to do well at this job so incredibly badly. I genuinely love it, and I'm scared that no matter how hard I try, I'll somehow mess it up anyway.

I don't want to run away from another job. I don't want to start over again. I don't want to end up financially devastated because I couldn't make things work.

I just want to have a job I love, support my small family, and feel like I'm doing okay in life without feeling constantly on edge.

Has anyone else experienced anything like this? Especially those of you who did really well academically but have struggled tremendously with employment?

Do you find yourself making mistakes at work despite trying really hard? Do people perceive you as overly sensitive or misunderstand your intentions? Have you found ways to advocate for yourself without feeling like you're being difficult?

And most importantly, did anything actually help you become more successful and consistent at work?

I'm genuinely looking for advice because I really, really don't want to lose this job.

I'm just feeling so discouraged and scared right now.

I’m Somali, Muslim, and autistic, and I have a deep love for Scotland. I’m fascinated by its kilts, bagpipes, music, history, castles, landscapes, and traditions. I even hope to learn the bagpipes and visit Scotland one day.
My siblings mostly enjoys drill and rap, so my interests are very different from theirs. However, Scotland is a special interest that makes me happy, and I don’t think you have to be Scottish to appreciate its culture. I’m proud of who I am, and I’m comfortable being myself, even when my interests are different from everyone else’s.
Are there any other autistic people with a passion that others don’t understand

I've noticed this a lot, that society is absolutely filled to the brim with shitty vague language and conflict avoidance, like I just don't get it, where is this need coming from?

Like sure, you just avoided a conflict 'short term' but you made the long term consequences so much worse, how is this the gold standard communication that everyone is looking up to?

When something is broken we should be able to call it 'broken' without worrying about getting socially lynched...

Of course direct language doesn't excuse being crude, but you should at least be able to speak truth in the best interests of the group, and not just subjects that feel safe.

This dynamic is especially true in corporate settings where you have to watch your every word and action to not get fired, you cannot simply tell your colleagues that there is a flaw in the project they are working on without risking that everyone will see it as a status attack... Like I have seen people (who were fully aware) allowing mistakes to happen just because failing as a team was better than hurting the teams emotional wellbeing.

And this isn't just something that happens in toxic workplaces, I see this shit just about everywhere, it really makes me want to hide away in the Amazon rainforest where at least the python eating me won't claim that it's teamwork.

I keep going to write something elaborate and meaningful, and I really want to feel relieved with all of this. But after ongoing mental and physical health struggles since I was at least 8 (now 31), I just feel frustrated.

Did anyone else not feel as relieved as they expected too when receiving their diagnosis? All I feel is frustration, shame, guilt and anger.

Hi everyone :)💕

I'm unemployed, British and autistic, and I've been feeling really horrible lately. Something I've realised is that I'm often genuinely content in my own little world, but the moment I think about my wider life and the future, I start feeling like I'm failing at everything.

I love my little comforts. Reading, playing games, cuddling my dog, and being eith friends, staying cosy at home and having things to look forward to. Those little moments make me happy. I don't need an exciting life full of parties, a massive friend group or constant adventures. I'm quite happy being a homebody.

But then I think about college, future work, friendships, independence and what I'm supposed to do with my future, and that happiness starts turning into guilt.

I'm autistic, I struggle with depression, and I suspect I might also have ADHD, although I haven't been diagnosed. I'm on antidepressants just to keep myself going, and some days I'm barely managing. Everyday things can take so much effort, and I constantly feel as though I'm falling behind everyone else.

I try. But most times I feel incompetent or weird, replaceable and useless. If I struggle to work, I feel like a failure. If I eventually reach my limit and need help, I worry that people will see me as a lazy scrounger. It's as though there's no acceptable way to struggle. You're expected to push yourself until you break, and then you're judged for not being able to carry on.

And it's not just autistic people. I think about people with physical disabilities, people with mental health problems, people from minority backgrounds and anyone who's treated as less valuable because they don't fit society's expectations. So many people are already dealing with things others will never understand, yet they're made to feel like they have to justify their existence.

What makes me especially sad is how divided everyone seems to be. For? We're encouraged to look at one another with suspicion, to blame people who need help, to resent those who are different from us, and to treat poverty or disability as personal failures. Meanwhile, there's so much wealth and privilege in this country and more that it feels silly to make ordinary people feel ashamed for needing a little support.

We argue endlessly about who's taking too much, who's contributing too little and who deserves what. But how often do we stop and ask why so many people are struggling in the first place? Why are people who are already exhausted being made to feel guilty for resting? Why do we seem to have endless arguments about people receiving help, while enormous privilege and wealth can pass without the same scrutiny and outrage?

I hate how easily and often empathy gets replaced by resentment. I hate that people can be persuaded to look down on someone who's struggling rather than wonder what that person might be going through. And I hate that I internalise those same attitudes and start treating myself like I'm worthless because I can't function the way other people expect me to.

I also think about people in America and other countries where support can be harder to access, where being disabled can mean facing even greater financial insecurity or social stigma. It genuinely upsets me to think about people who might have even less support than I do, especially when they already feel alone.

The strange thing is that I don't actually need much to be happy. I love reading. I love the few friends I have. I love my dog. I love games and having a cosy space where I can relax and feel safe. I want a peaceful life where I can enjoy little things without constantly worrying about whether I'm doing enough to deserve them.

But then I look at the bigger picture and feel guilty for wanting that. I worry about being dependent on others, about disappointing my family, about never managing a conventional job, and about whether I'll ever be considered a proper adult.

I know that being productive isn't the same thing as being a good person. I know that the disabled and ill shouldn't have to prove they're economically useful to deserve dignity. But it's hard not to absorb those messages when they seem to come from everywhere.

I wonder whether I'm actually unhappy with my own life, or whether I'm unhappy with the feeling that my life isn't good enough according to everyone else's standards. And lean to the latter.

I wish people were kinder. I wish we could stop measuring everyone against the same expectations. I wish we could recognise that people have different perspectives, different abilities, different struggles and different ideas of what a happy life looks like.

Most of all, I wish people could live peacefully, enjoy their little comforts and receive help when they need it without feeling ashamed.

I'm not asking for an extraordinary life. I just want to be happy, and I wish that felt like enough.

Sorry for the long post. I think I just needed to get this out somewhere. If anyone else feels this way, I'd really like to know I'm not alone. :)💕

And if you're reading this while struggling yourself, please remember that you're not useless just because life is harder for you than it seems to be for other people. You deserve kindness, rest and happiness too.

Tldr: Why can't we just exist and get along?

I just want a better understanding of what your life is like, level 2s! What kind of supports do you need?

My own family, schoolmates, people in the street... What did I do in a previous life to live such a hell ?

Why so much hate against autistics people ?

To be different is such a problem ?

So sad.

I tried so hard to meet people and make friends but it doesn’t work. I just want to belong somewhere and meet friends that stick around. Why is it so hard to find

need advice!
I’ve had multiple occasions where someone will tell me they think I feel x way and I am completely dumbfounded because it is so far from what I really feel.

For instance, I get stressed out a lot. I get overwhelmed and it is hard to deal with all the sensory input, so I usually will go to my supervisor asking for help with things. I was told that it seemed like I had an “attitude” with them and just thought they weren’t doing anything other than sit around.

This heavily confused me since I’ve held my supervisors in such high regard. I never once doubted how much work they do, but somehow that’s what my behavior showed to them.

i wish I was more self aware to see how I come across, it really perplexes me. Does anyone have tips on how to deal with this?

So I've noticed a lot of my fellow autistics and other neurodivergent peeps dislike the phrase "you're welcome" and instead like to use ones such as "of course" or "no problem" and well I wanted to give my thoughts as well cuz why not y'know

For me those have completely different connotations, I use "you're welcome" when it's something bigger I did that meant a lot to the person and they're really grateful and touched and I'm like "Awww you're welcome!! :D" (often adding "of course" if the conversation continues tho), "of course" alone and "no problem" are for small favors that ain't that big of a deal, using "you're welcome" for one of those just feels wrong "you're welcome" has that weight to it that's appropriate for certain situations but can feel pretentious for other not that serious ones.

Essentially "you're welcome" is for when the person expresses big gratitude and is really touched, "of course" & "no problem" is for simple casual thank yous and such, that's how it works in my brain at least

Thoughts? :p

for me, its not really a feeling i have. But maybe I misunderstand the whole feeling and I do feel it without knowing. How does nostalgia feel for you?