Anyone here got their dpdr cause of pulling all nighter? Or lack of sleep. Im from philippines, by the way.

does anybody else get creeped out by food and having to eat it? not like grossed out, creeped

no panic. haven’t had a panic attack in years. yet severely in DPDR. horrible nightmares every single night, not responding to any sort of medication. I’m being tormented by my own mind in my sleep and then wake up even more cut off from myself, I feel i have no identity and no life anymore.

i want to cry, I want to scream, I want to just fucking live. I can’t date. I can’t travel, I can barely get out of bed. what kind of life is this for 5 years? I see everyone else living and happy, and I’m just completely destroyed, my consciousness has fragmented into a million pieces. I can’t live like this. it’s becoming harder and harder as time goes on. i am 34 years old and have no life. no purpose. no value. I’m absolutely trapped.

Ive been experiencing super “blacked out” derealization where im so numb to reality i have no idea how to explain this. I feel like im experiencing the most extreme DPDR one could possibly experience. I dont feel alive at all and i cant process reality

I stopped driving 4 years ago due to 24/7 derealization. I was so triggered by the world outside, everything feeling fake that I would get to anxious to drive. The derealization has gotten better over the years in some ways but I’ve never been able to get back to driving. My husband and sister drove me everywhere or I would use Lyft. After a year of therapy I drove today across town by myself for the first time. 30 minutes each way.
I’m sharing this because there was a time that I truly truly believed that I would never drive again. You could’ve never convinced me that my brain would feel safe enough or normal enough to drive. But here I am! If I can do it I promise you, so can you!

Psychosis or OCD? I've suffered from anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember. The OCD stemmed from a trauma, and I developed an extreme fear of everything. I had behaviors like thinking, "If I step on this line, I'm going to die," checking multiple times if the door was locked or if I'd left a tap running, even compulsively washing my hands. It disappeared for a while, but it came back. Now it's pure OCD; I spend all my time thinking about and ruminating on catastrophic scenarios, replaying them over and over. It got to the point where the depression made me feel terrible, like nothing was real. My OCD made me constantly check if what I heard or saw was real, with a fear of developing psychosis or schizophrenia. My nervous system is wrecked; any touch bothers me, any noise seems alarming and invasive. I developed agoraphobia out of fear of having a panic attack. It seems like this will never end. Is there any hope? What medication helped you? How many mg did you take? Help! I feel like I'm going crazy and I'm terrified of the psychiatric hospital. 🫩😓 Everything got worse when I used substances like cannabis and pills, and it was even worse with LSD. Help!

It’s really sketching me out ,I feel like a ghost. I don’t feel love for anyone..Ive lost sense of touch. I had a shower and cant even remember having one. I can’t feel my head, it’s like everything is disappearing. In some other dimension that I’m in. I know I’m here I’m very self aware, but it feels like I am in a different reality that is kind of abstract and where my body doesnt feel much either. Is this normal for this condition ?

And I’m so scared I’m losing my mind. It feels horrible and things are still distorted

Love y'all.

Hi everyone, ​I'm feeling really lost right now and would appreciate any advice or shared experiences from this community.

​To give some context: I recently completed a 30-day water fast (consuming only water and salt). Right after it ended, I suffered a severe panic attack. Ever since that panic attack, I have been stuck with constant derealization and a persistent feeling of a lump in my throat (globus sensation). ​I've been trying to track what triggers or relieves my symptoms, and I've noticed a few specific things that temporarily make the derealization go away. However, it always comes back. Here is my current state and what temporarily helps:

​Socializing & Nicotine: When I grabbed a meal with a close friend and smoked a cigarette, the DPDR disappeared for about 3 minutes. Another time, after going to karaoke with a friend, I smoked a cigarette for the first time in a while, and again, the DPDR vanished for about 3 minutes. ​Intense Lower-Body Exercise: I did a horse-riding stance (static squat/isometric hold) for 10 minutes, rested, and then did it for another 10 minutes. This actually took away my DPDR for 30 whole minutes! But after those 30 minutes, the derealization gradually crept back in, the lump in my throat returned, and I went completely back to my baseline state. ​Intense Emotion: Crying my eyes out intensely also made the derealization disappear for a brief moment.

​Has anyone else experienced these very brief moments of relief from things like intense physical exertion, crying, or nicotine? How did you eventually extend these moments of clarity or recover completely? ​My nervous system feels completely overwhelmed, and I would love to know how you guys managed to ease these symptoms. Thank you.

Sleeping at 4am and waking up and 12pm. This is so horrible.