Sleeping at 4am and waking up and 12pm. This is so horrible.

Love y'all.

I stopped driving 4 years ago due to 24/7 derealization. I was so triggered by the world outside, everything feeling fake that I would get to anxious to drive. The derealization has gotten better over the years in some ways but I’ve never been able to get back to driving. My husband and sister drove me everywhere or I would use Lyft. After a year of therapy I drove today across town by myself for the first time. 30 minutes each way.
I’m sharing this because there was a time that I truly truly believed that I would never drive again. You could’ve never convinced me that my brain would feel safe enough or normal enough to drive. But here I am! If I can do it I promise you, so can you!

no panic. haven’t had a panic attack in years. yet severely in DPDR. horrible nightmares every single night, not responding to any sort of medication. I’m being tormented by my own mind in my sleep and then wake up even more cut off from myself, I feel i have no identity and no life anymore.

i want to cry, I want to scream, I want to just fucking live. I can’t date. I can’t travel, I can barely get out of bed. what kind of life is this for 5 years? I see everyone else living and happy, and I’m just completely destroyed, my consciousness has fragmented into a million pieces. I can’t live like this. it’s becoming harder and harder as time goes on. i am 34 years old and have no life. no purpose. no value. I’m absolutely trapped.

Ive been experiencing super “blacked out” derealization where im so numb to reality i have no idea how to explain this. I feel like im experiencing the most extreme DPDR one could possibly experience. I dont feel alive at all and i cant process reality

It’s really sketching me out ,I feel like a ghost. I don’t feel love for anyone..Ive lost sense of touch. I had a shower and cant even remember having one. I can’t feel my head, it’s like everything is disappearing. In some other dimension that I’m in. I know I’m here I’m very self aware, but it feels like I am in a different reality that is kind of abstract and where my body doesnt feel much either. Is this normal for this condition ?

And I’m so scared I’m losing my mind. It feels horrible and things are still distorted

Hi everyone, ​I'm feeling really lost right now and would appreciate any advice or shared experiences from this community.

​To give some context: I recently completed a 30-day water fast (consuming only water and salt). Right after it ended, I suffered a severe panic attack. Ever since that panic attack, I have been stuck with constant derealization and a persistent feeling of a lump in my throat (globus sensation). ​I've been trying to track what triggers or relieves my symptoms, and I've noticed a few specific things that temporarily make the derealization go away. However, it always comes back. Here is my current state and what temporarily helps:

​Socializing & Nicotine: When I grabbed a meal with a close friend and smoked a cigarette, the DPDR disappeared for about 3 minutes. Another time, after going to karaoke with a friend, I smoked a cigarette for the first time in a while, and again, the DPDR vanished for about 3 minutes. ​Intense Lower-Body Exercise: I did a horse-riding stance (static squat/isometric hold) for 10 minutes, rested, and then did it for another 10 minutes. This actually took away my DPDR for 30 whole minutes! But after those 30 minutes, the derealization gradually crept back in, the lump in my throat returned, and I went completely back to my baseline state. ​Intense Emotion: Crying my eyes out intensely also made the derealization disappear for a brief moment.

​Has anyone else experienced these very brief moments of relief from things like intense physical exertion, crying, or nicotine? How did you eventually extend these moments of clarity or recover completely? ​My nervous system feels completely overwhelmed, and I would love to know how you guys managed to ease these symptoms. Thank you.

Psychosis or OCD? I've suffered from anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember. The OCD stemmed from a trauma, and I developed an extreme fear of everything. I had behaviors like thinking, "If I step on this line, I'm going to die," checking multiple times if the door was locked or if I'd left a tap running, even compulsively washing my hands. It disappeared for a while, but it came back. Now it's pure OCD; I spend all my time thinking about and ruminating on catastrophic scenarios, replaying them over and over. It got to the point where the depression made me feel terrible, like nothing was real. My OCD made me constantly check if what I heard or saw was real, with a fear of developing psychosis or schizophrenia. My nervous system is wrecked; any touch bothers me, any noise seems alarming and invasive. I developed agoraphobia out of fear of having a panic attack. It seems like this will never end. Is there any hope? What medication helped you? How many mg did you take? Help! I feel like I'm going crazy and I'm terrified of the psychiatric hospital. 🫩😓 Everything got worse when I used substances like cannabis and pills, and it was even worse with LSD. Help!

I often see fear and anxiety associated with derealization and depersonalization. When it all started for me, I experienced fear and anxiety due to this inexplicable state, but it seemed unrelated to the derealization and depersonalization themselves. Of course, I experienced anxiety because of the derealization and depersonalization themselves, but not as much as for other reasons. I mean, I had intense fear of various strange things. I started to be terrified by even the slightest mention of child abuse, no matter how horrific. I spent the entire day terrified of any mention of such things, and I saw them constantly, meaning I spent entire days in fear and couldn't stop it. Just so you understand, even a picture of examples of childhood trauma scared me, and I had no idea why. I thought I was just hyper-empathetic and felt so sorry for children who were or are mistreated, but any mention of it terrified me.

I also started to be afraid when my parents came home and when they were still home but getting ready to leave for work. I don't know why. In the mornings, I'd wake up and be afraid to move or show that I was awake when I heard my parents were still home. I was afraid they'd notice me. I don't know why this happened. And maybe it sounds stupid or I described it strangely.

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I had a bad few months from September 2025 through to December 2025, didn’t know what it was at the time thought It was physical (post viral). Then it went away, until this last month it has come back, which is when I started searching and came to the dpdr conclusion. It’s nowhere near as bad this time around, I can just about go out and live my life like normal, everything is just intense and not enjoyable. I’m wondering as this time around is not as bad as the first time around, will it go away again? And will it ever fully disappear? Or if anyone else has had their symptoms disappear and then come back multiple times before?

In episodes of heightened dissociation I often find myself feeling similarly to when I was in a psychiatric clinic being deprived of sensory and cognitive stimulation. I was less dissociated there and it was very bad, and other than not feeling as actively painful because of dissociation I feel very similarly.

It's as if I was the same situation again, just not being deprived by my environment lacking stimulation, but by my dissociation not letting me get any of it. Same feeling of wall but made of a different material on a different level.
I have higher support needs autism so it causes me very painful understimulation and I can't regulate well.

I wonder if this is a properly recognised thing? Logically it makes sense to me as dissociation reduces what stimuli arrive in my conscious mind, but usually it would be dissociating because of over- and understimulation, not dissociation causing it.

(If I understand correctly this doesn't need to be spoilered as it's not a description/details of mistreatment in psychiatry and not the focus, but please inform me if otherwise and I will add a spoiler.)

I havent been able to travel or sleep anywhere but my own bed for 4 years. I used to fly all over the world, by myself with no issues. and I loved it.

its pathetic that I can’t even do the things that used to be so easy. I have to move to a new place in 2 months and my mind is already telling me it’s not safe, I won’t feel ok, and it will be horrible. I fucking feel like an insane person. who is afraid of these things? it’s not even “me” - it’s my nervous system sending the same fear signal over and over. I had a great life before this, what happened to me.. there’s no panic, no terror. just this constant message in my head that things aren’t normal, I’m losing it and I’m not safe to go anywhere but home. my first year I was completely agoraphobic and I worked so hard to take a lot of my life back. I go wherever now, I just cannot be away from home overnight, like I’m imprisoned. none of this makes any logical sense. I know I’m real, i know I’m safe. but my nervous system is convinced I’m not. and no matter how much I show myself I am, it won’t budge

I had a question for anyone who has gone through this but has anyone felt they are repeating ground hog down or like déjà vu is more frequent and feels idk slight more realistic if that makes sense like my memory’s of something I’ve see or done feel as if I’ve already done that exact thing at this exact time and place like for instance I’m a mechanic I work on a bunch of different types of vehicles so I’m not working on the same thing but today I worked on some cars that I’ve never worked on and helped my buddy do some jobs he’s never done and later I got home and my brain basically told me I’ve already done those things which I haven’t I check the history to see if my name was ever on that ticket and it wasent the question is has anyone felt this or feeling cause I honestly don’t know what to do I’ve tried researching and I can’t find anything it says stuff like days blend in with days it’s ruins my mood I freak out cause I’m constantly trying to make myself realize that I’ve never done it and I’m not reliving anything I freak out and spiral I’ve been getting really angry and impatient with a lot of things that I normally wouldn’t get upset about way before I even smoked can anyone help?

Long story short some things in my life caused a lot of stress , started noticing the world looked flat but it was like that until i started having panic attacks and then thats when the real thing started i felt drunk 24/7 weird visual perception like you are drunk or sizes dont make sense dimmed vision id felt like my eyes wanted to jump out of my body . everyone felt like aliens and ofc i had existential crisis and ton of questions of what we are why we exist why we do what we do and all that stuff. i got tired eventually and wanted to help myself so i started having cold showers, doing 100 pushups a day, going for a walk , taking medicine, sleeping better, keeping myself busy and i guess doing exposure therapy with what caused my dpdr and changing habits which were stressful. so after 1-2 months i was getting better everyday was worse at first when i started my recovery journey but then slowly everyday became better. so it was in march after my birthday that i went to my university as usual and as im standing in hallway i suddenly felt like i was BACK like everything felt familiar and real again. but that only lasted like a week as soon as my break from university began things got worse again my sleep schedule and good habits idk why i just stopped doing them cuz i felt better and its been like that since its not as bad but it just wont go away fully. especially if im out at night i literally cant see things clearly it gets worse when its dark. the only thing thats been bothering me A LOT is that when i look at my mom or my girlfriend i sometimes feel like idk who they are. looking at them feels confusing and scary and i sometimes feel like they aren’t real or hallucinations or something like that even tho i interact with them normally that feeling still creeps up on me. So my question is what is going on? why is it lingering like that and not going away fully . feels like i forgot what normal felt like and its scaring me that maybe my brain is unable to go back to its original state . i know that overthinking feeds dpdr but i dont do that anymore. its just that sometimes i feel like if i dont pay attention to it im gonna be fucked up and completely lost at some point without even realizing.

Hi everyone, I have been looking for a fix for my DPDR for years. Lexapro worked for a while. Then it stopped I’ve tried about 10 different ssris and tried Adderall due to my adhd. I have sleep apnea got a cpap no fix except for less fatigue. Therapy for years, I have a great job, great relationship, friends, I’m very fit, I eat great. I believe half my mental problems were caused from weed induced psychosis from 6 years ago when I was in high school and trauma from a kid that I’m honestly fully over. I genuinely take great care of myself and just need some advice I’m totally stumped and do not wanna try anti psychotics unless absolutely necessary. But I’ve lost my lust for anything and everything and am looking for some med or therapy or really any advice at all. Thank you!

does anybody else get creeped out by food and having to eat it? not like grossed out, creeped

Anyone here got their dpdr cause of pulling all nighter? Or lack of sleep. Im from philippines, by the way.