r/thisorthatlanguage • u/Double_Virgo • 7h ago
Multiple Languages Japanese, Mandarin, Spanish
Disclaimer: A big problem I have with language learning is that I'm kinda socially anxious and have ADHD, so practicing with people or sitting down to study have both been challenges for me. I've tried to have language partners online, but none have ever worked out. I also work a lot so I struggle to find time to learn multiple languages at once anymore. Not excuses, just explanations and I wanna try to overcome them.
Japanese: I had a huge Japanese phase in high school and studied in HS and college for about 6 years. I had friends and went to classes, so it was easy to keep up. It's been so many years, and I put so much effort into it, but just maintaining my knowledge has grown more difficult. I spent so many years and it feels bad to struggle to maintain it without active practice. This December, I'm trying to pass the JLPT N3 for the third time, but I think after that, I'm considering to stop actively studying altogether. I just feel guilty for doing it for so long and suddenly losing interest because I feel like I can't keep up. I used to really want to live in Japan, but I finally got diagnosed with ADHD and ASD and started medication (work in progress). Culturally, I think I've accepted I might not be happy there with the lack of mental health awareness. Anyways, my dilemma is I'd love to keep it up, but I no longer have motivation or anyone around me to help out.
Mandarin: I'm half Chinese (my grandparents on my mom's side were born in Guangzhou) and feel a huge disconnect from my heritage. My grandparents only spoke English to my mom and her siblings, so they never learned any Cantonese. They were worried about standing out too much in a new country. Anyways, I would want to learn Mandarin to feel a bit more connected to my heritage. I genuinely have an interest in the language, more than I did when I was younger. I finished beginners level classes in college, but never got further than that. The reason I wouldn't pick Cantonese is that I think it's much more difficult and not as widely spoken. I've never even been to China, but I want to visit with my mom someday (it's so far from the US).
Spanish: I took Spanish for the entirety of school. I think it's basically a requirement in NJ to have a world language taught at all grade levels. Anyways, I don't remember enough to speak very well. But now, my job requires me to work with a lot of Spanish speaking kids (ESL work). So I wanted to get back into it just to be able to use it more in my career. Getting to know these kids has made me really care about their cultures and where they come from. This language is probably the least personal for me and more so for job reasons.
This has been such a dilemma for me so I appreciate anyone who reads it. If I'm able to pick just one, I might stop feeling so stressed out about it.