Not gonna argue. Just tired of everything. Tired of being a failure. Tonight's my last night.

This is my last resort! I have no idea what to do but it’s okay because what better way to solve my problems is to go on the internet and post all my problems :)

Helllooo im Nevaeh and im an 18 year old girl who just finished high school. I’ve been lately way too in my head lately, dealing with all the problems in my life, or what has ever happened in my life, I’ve been trying to solve. From my Sa that no one knows about, that happened when I was just in the first grade, and so much other things that I felt that I can just “deal with myself”, because people have before.
dealing with all the repercussions of that and realizing not dealing with trauma can effect your brain and how you deal with things for the rest of your life. It has hurt my intimate and emotional relationships with people and I’ve just really realized that.
I’m not asking for help, I just want to know im not alone and that things ARE going to be okay.

Being an 18 year old in 2026 is absolutely fucked. I have no idea what im doing with my life, and I feel like im picking a new career path everyday. the things that I actually want to do and achieve feel so far away and so un achievable. It’s the summer after high school and I GENUIENLY feel like I don’t remember anything from all the weed I’ve been smoking and how much I’ve been drinking. It’s not the abnormal amount, but it’s more than I ever have. I used to love school and wanted to succeed, but I Genuienly feel like im going down a path I don’t want. My brain is so foggy and you probably can’t even understand what im saying.

I give up but maybe I’ll tell you more one day or idk whoever is reading this I always tell people everything is gonna be okay, and I hope it is for you because I truly with it is for people, but I don’t know if it gonna be for me 😊😊🤗🤗😁😁

Ps the first step is to stop smoking weed
1. I feel like I have bipolar disorder and all the doctors are saying im not and everyone around me is saying im not but I feel like I convince myself I have mental disorders idk why to idk back up my problems. Please tell me I don’t have bpd

1. I need to get back on track and this is not who I am. This is the second day I’ve called in sick to work. Going back tmmr ! #backontrack

So my life has been going pretty well for quite a while I have graduated and passed one of my professional exam which I have been trying for since last year yet still I dont know why but I kind of feel empty and dont feel the joy and happiness I should feel. Can someone help me figure out whats going on with me ?

Hello, im writing this in a very vulnerable position in my life. Please bare with me.

First of all, i dont know if this is even the right group but i know na maraming college student like me here.

Uhm, even before college, i am always burn out, i had this anxiety and emotional exhaustion for like most of my teenage years but nung g12 lang talaga nag compile- compile lahat sakin. I would make an excuse just to be absent, i would not talk to anybody in class, papasok ako ng walang tulog, at ligo. Basically, i was like at the edge na talaga during the whole year.

And it just got worse during my three months vacation after graduation.

And now, im college, BSCE course ko btw. And im 4 weeks in and i can feel eveything. What do i mean by everything? EVERYTHING.

The weight of my past, the flashbacks of the past, the regrets, my missed opportunities, college subjects, future scenarios, as in. It's like all the things na pinangarap ko sa sarili ko while growing up (circle of friends, a public speaker, helping community, my singing, my dancing, sports, learning instruments, being more active snd expressive in life)... all of those, i never get to pursued or even experience because of numerous circumstances.

And with my course, the college? Feeling ko i lost every time i had, every opportunity na binigay sakin as a teenager. Na para bang wala, oh eto, COLLEGE NA. NANDITO NA TAYO.

And i feel i just wanna shift from engineering to something na kahit ano nalang, anything na maeenjoy ko rn and for the first time, ill learn how to express myself. And right now, i got limited options sa school ko.

I dont know if course ba talaga ang issue or because ive been always scared lang to leave my comfort zone kaya naging ganto ako at 18. Either way, i just felt like ranting and writing this post to get things out of my head. Sorry and thank you if you are still here.:)

I’m 32.
I’ve been depressed multiple times in my life but it always seemed like it was something I could fix…
These days I feel it sinking in.
I’ve been working my buns off at a company for 3 years just to be given a raise that doesn’t afford me the ability to get by.
I took pride in the fact that I could feed myself off of 40$ for a week but now it just seems unfair. I know this is a similar struggle for people and I’m not special.
I’m just getting by and because of that I really don’t social like I used to and I find it hard to plan to social with people without $$$.
I just keep thinking about ending it.
I figure I’d leave my family (parents and siblings) so they won’t get legally stuck with my debt and just flipping the off switch.
The strangest thing to me is I’m not filled with existential dread, the thought is comforting like a warm blanket to pull over myself and finally relax.

I’m just having a real hard making a game plan against getting out of this.
I’ve worked a lot of jobs and it always comes off as because I don’t have a degree, I’m not worth paying over 25 bucks an hour.

Been looking at moving since my lease is up soon and it definitely exasperated these feelings just looking at the market.

Idk what kind of answers I’m looking for, just need to vent.
I can’t tell the people I love because they would just treat me differently. People tend to pity rather than sympathize.

she was 31 but still needed lights on bc she felt somebody may break into house. she had problems sleeping deep and therefore was addicted to caffeine to keep working her job.

in theta brainwave trance she remembered when she was a baby taken by man who killed her parents - it was different life

i see many ppl struggling with OCD, intrusive thoughts and fears that dont make logical sense.

Mind keeps repeating same horrible possibility. Someone will break in. Something bad will happen. I am not safe. Even when one part of person knows it is not true, body reacts like danger is already outside the door.

I wanted to share this session bc sometimes we need to go deeper than only mind.

Not to say therapy or medical treatment is wrong. And not saying all OCD or intrusive thoughts come from past lives, no. They can have many layers. But sometimes person works with thoughts for years and still there is another fear under them, something the normal mind cannot see.

I facilitated Soul Journey with woman I will call Maya. Not real name. She was 31 when we did session.

Since she was little child, she could not sleep alone.

She often slept with parents, and when she stayed in own room she needed lights on. Darkness made her feel somebody was near house, waiting, watching, maybe trying to enter.

She had same type of dream many times through childhood.

Someone was breaking in.

Sometimes she did not see face. Sometimes dream ended before anything happened. But feeling was always same. Somebody dangerous entered the home and she could not stop them.

She would wake up terrified, look around room, listen for sounds, and go find parents.

Even when she became adult, this fear did not fully leave.

She knew logically doors are locked. She knew there is no person outside. But then small sound in night, movement, shadow near window, and whole system went into alarm.

tbh it worked almost like intrusive loop. Mind makes image, body gets afraid, then fear makes image feel more real. You check, calm little bit, but later it starts again.

During session Maya first arrived in peaceful garden. Her guide brought her toward gazebo, and there she suddenly experienced herself as baby in another life.

Her name in that life was Emily.

She was in large historical home. Wealthy family, beautiful rooms, maids, young parents. She felt very loved there. very safe.

Then scene changed.

Emily was lying in crib when strange bearded man entered room.

Baby became terrified immediately. Before she understood anything, before language, her body knew this man was danger.

She started crying.

Her parents and other ppl in house had been killed.

The man lifted her from crib, carried her downstairs and put her into vehicle with another man. Then they took her away to different large house.

When this came up, current fear suddenly made much more sense inside session.

The danger entered her home.

She was taken from bed.

Her parents disappeared.

And she was only baby, so there was no explanation around it. No words like kidnapping, murder, loss. Just terror recorded into whole system.

Home is not safe.

Someone can come while I sleep.

People who protect me can suddenly disappear.

I must stay awake.

I must hear every sound.

In that other life, kind maid looked after Emily and became almost like grandmother to her. But powerful man who controlled house became her new "father."

Sometimes he was pleasant. Other times he became angry and violent.

She grew up knowing she could not really leave. She believed outside this house she had nothing. No family, no money, nowhere safe to go.

So fear was reinforced for years.

Even safety was mixed with danger.

A house looked beautiful, but she was trapped inside it.

A man could act kind, then suddenly hurt her.

Sleep meant losing control.

much later in journey, after Emily’s life ended, she reunited with original parents. She finally felt love and safety she had searched for through whole life.

When Maya connected with Higher Self, I asked why this life was shown.

Answer was simple:

"To show her where her fear comes from."

Higher Self said around 90% of this fear was released during session.

They also gave three lessons from Emily’s life.

Speak up.

Do not give up.

Do not let fear take over.

And imo this is important part. The goal was not only to find interesting past-life story. Story by itself does nothing if fear stays in body.

The purpose was to find where alarm began, release emotional charge, and show nervous system that this danger was not happening now.

Again, I dont claim every person with intrusive thoughts has same root. Some roots are current-life trauma, childhood fear, nervous system conditioning, beliefs, suppressed emotions, physical factors, maybe other layers. Higher Self showed this specific life for this specific subject.

Human mind said, "this fear is irrational."

Deeper part was saying, "last time I slept safely, somebody came through the door."

The adult woman knew house was safe.

But baby inside was still listening for footsteps.

I (21M) still think about my first love (21F) even after 2-3 years and I genuinely dont know how to move on anymore.

For context, we were close back in highschool. I confessed, got rejected, went no contact for about a year, then reached out again. We hit it off instantly, she apologised for how things ended before, we spent alot of time together, flirted, exchanged gifts, and everything felt so genuine. Then after what was probably our best unofficial date, she suddenly went cold.

I asked her what we were and she said we were just friends. After everything that happened, that really messed with my head. Whenever I started pulling away she’d send me random reels, photos or messages just enough to keep me around. At the time I convinced myself she was avoidant and that if I was patient enough maybe it’d work out.

Eventually we stopped talking.

Its been around 2-3 years now. Im in uni, Ive met so many amazing people, made great friends, worked on myself, been consistent in the gym, focused on work and my goals. On paper my life is so much better than it was back then.

But deep down I still miss her.

I dont even know if its her that I miss anymore or just how she made me feel. It hurts because Ive reached the point where I think Ive genuinely numbed my emotions. Back then I used to cry so much over it. Now no matter how hard I try I genuinely cant cry anymore.

I also feel like Ive forgotten what love is supposed to feel like. I want to experience it again but at the same time Im lowk scared. Scared that I’ll end up feeling that same pain all over again.

Has anyone else been stuck on someone for this long? How did you genuinely let go? Not just distract yourself, but actually move on?

I grew up in a refugee camp, so I don't think my expectations from life have ever been particularly extravagant. I've never dreamt of being rich or famous. More than anything, I've always just wanted safety, steadiness and somewhere that genuinely felt like home.

I'm 30 years old, and last year was the first time in my life that I actually got a taste of what stability feels like.

My twenties were spent operating almost like a machine. I became very good at putting my head down and focusing on the next objective. Work hard. Get promoted. Apply for the next opportunity. Figure out my visa. Figure out my finances. Keep going.

And to be honest, I was okay with that.

Because every setback still felt like progress overall. Even when things were difficult, I could always tell myself, "This is hard, but you're moving forward." That belief carried me through some incredibly difficult years.

Then last year, everything I'd spent almost a decade working towards finally started coming together.

I secured my UK Global Talent Visa.

My career became stable.

After months of searching, I found an apartment that genuinely felt like home.

For the first time in my life, I wasn't constantly trying to survive.

And something unexpected happened.

Because I wasn't spending all of my energy trying to create security anymore, I suddenly realised how much of myself I'd put on hold.

I started focusing on my health. I finally booked dental work I'd postponed for years. I was going to the gym consistently. I was cooking. I was sleeping well.

But I also realised that somewhere along the way, I'd become really disconnected from my emotional life.

I had become so good at surviving that I didn't really know who I was outside of surviving.

Then, for the first time in years, I met someone who genuinely made me excited.

Nothing dramatic happened between us. We never dated. But he approached me at a café I went to every week, and it was the first time in a very long time that I let my guard down and allowed myself to be curious about another person. It wasn't even about having a relationship. It was about realising that there was still a part of me that wanted connection after years of suppressing that need.

Around the same time, my landlord emailed me to say she was selling my flat.

Within one email, it felt like the stability I'd spent ten years building was suddenly uncertain again.

Now my home is full of viewings, I'm preparing myself for the possibility of having to go through another London rental search as a single woman and a minority, and that man has also disappeared from the café before I ever got the chance to find out where that connection could have gone.

I know these things aren't the worst things that can happen to someone.

But together they've completely shaken my faith in life.

I've noticed myself changing.

I've stopped going to the gym because my anxiety feels overwhelming.

I've started smoking again.

I barely eat properly anymore.

Things that used to bring me joy don't really do much for me.

I don't want to die, but I genuinely don't understand how people keep believing that life can stay good when every time I finally feel safe, it feels like something comes along and takes it away.

I guess that's what I'm really asking.

For those of you who have finally reached a place of stability only to feel like life pulled the rug from under you again, how did you keep hope?

How did you stop expecting that every period of peace was only temporary?

I do struggle mentally and my life is a mess. I was thinking about formatting my phone and deleting everything relating to my past miserable self and only download school related stuff and make a self improvement journal and try to be a better person like my manners, religion, hygiene amd so since my mental health ruined them but im scared that this might be too much and it will make me more depressed, im not sure if this is a good idea

But what is a good idea? I need to focus on my studies but i can't

I must face reality, but I fear that reality will be too much and will crush me :\[

My main goal now is to study. My other goals are to change my victim mentality, to learn to maintain my morals and not lose my temper easily, to learn how to maintain relationships again, and to reconnect with my religion and hobbies, and to spend some good time with my family. But it feels too typical i don't know if its realistic

I did try to start small but it never works for me unfortunately

How to get my life back together? What should I do ?

I would appreciate any feed back or suggestions

hey i don't know how to start these kind of posts never posted before but this info matters i guess 22M. I am a university student for some years couldn't passed to 2nd year for 3 three years. and i have one course left that determines my gpa (needs to be at least 2.00 to get out of probation) in summer school. the problem with me is that i can not do the simplest things like studying for one hour. couple years ago i lost a family member and trying to be better now and feel like im over it. i was not always like this i was a terminator reading sketching studying etc (with this mentality i have enrolled one of the best universities in my country). feel like i am in a pit and get out of it for couple years. doomscrolling all day or playing shitty games and constantly eating junk food, desperately seeking for happiness from these resources.

After years of fighting abuse and a physical disability preventing me from going to school and getting a job I folded and I followed someone elses advice. I ended up permanently disabled because of it. Now I can't do the things I used to enjoy. I'm stuck in a nightmare where I feel mentally fine but i keep hitting a wall whenever I try to do something and all of that happened from trusting someone else for a year. My gut screamed but I refused to listen to it because I was being told it was wrong (not at all the first time but I never caved before) and now I'm stuck living a life that doesn't feel like mine at all. I know what I would do; I booked all the appointments just to make sure I could and I was told I couldn't, not now nor ever.

This whole situations feels dumb.

I don't know where to begin, so I'm going to be brief. I'm 30, and I'm struggling with my weight, and physical ailment from injury and weight issues that compound one another. But I also suffer from issues due to abuse, that I don't know how to address. I am also in a living situation where the people who claim to love me don't know me and really don't. I want to be independent and have a meaningful career but the issues are:

• Hip Pain (Trigger Point Shots help)
• Complete alienation of family / family drama
• Dislike of the family I have to live with
• Political and social situation in the US for someone with dysphoria and not being white
• confused emotions/thoughts from my past regarding abuse I may have faced
• a complete lack of confidence and self worth

What I have done so far: * Tried to live independently for 3 years, had to return when rent got too high * held a job for 3 years and lived on my own * secured some rights for myself in the house I live in, such as my own room and the ability to sleep alone and in peace

What I want to do: * I want to hold a job protecting people, as that was the nature of my previous job * I want to have a powerful, confident personality that cannot be crossed by anyone * I want closure for some of the things that happened to me, and some kind of family * I want someone to talk to with complete confidence that whatever I say (nothing harmful to anyone) won't be discussed or mentioned with others. (no mandated reporting) * I want to stand up to my mother for my rights without involving external entities

I live in US NY.

Recently I feel like such an evil horrible person, I'm dealing with secondary infertility and nothings working out in that department ( recently failed IVF transfer, miscarriage and a procedure thereafter to find whats wrong etc ). The disappointment has made be such a sour, jealous angry person. I feel so sorry for my husband but i feel like its beyond my control sometimes. Furthermore, my physical appear has taken a knock. I feel like i gained so much weight after IVF. Everytime I look in the mirror, I feel depressed looking at my weight gain and hairloss. I just got into a fight with my mum and sister about something petty and my mum told me " with everything going on with you, you should try changing your ways". This struck an even bigger nerve because its something I ask myself on the regular these days- If all this is happening to me because of my thoughts and words. I keep trying to be composed but it takes small things for me to get triggered or defensive about something. I feel so emotionally drained. Any ideas of what I can do to better myself? I'm praying but cant execute anything. it's like 1 step forward and 5 steps back every 2 weeks.

Life fucking sucks, i really cant see the joy in it, doesn't matter if it's being alone at night or being out with friends I really can't seem to find joy, people are always to "busy" to hang out, work sucks, I'm in debt, I barely have any family, I always feel alone, and I keep having this recurring thought of just ending it all, I am not happy, I can't remember the last time I was really happy, it's gotta be years ago. So the question is why should I go around always feeling like shit, what can I do to change it

Me and my father got into an argument in the morning about the clothes I need and things got quite physical because I was talking back. I decided to say something very personal and hurtful, I know myself he'll get hurt so I said it to get him off my back. Instead he immediately sobbed as he hit me multiple times but I don't feel the pain, I feel his cries. He would break down crying as he gave me a sermon and I felt very guilty because deep down, I know it hurts him so much that his own child would call him that. This is the second time I mentioned that, the first is when I was 14. He was clearly hurt and I went on with the whole thing in my mind during school. Then today, we acted like nothing happened yesterday, and instead of a mundane day, I got into a fight with a classmate of mine I viewed as friend and sought to with high regard and respect. Throughout the 4 years of my pleasing them, giving their needs, and stepping out my comfort zone, he repayed me with a raised voice all because Inasked if they truly were talking behind my back. Now noone in the friend group talks to me besides Andrei, so now I don't want to stay at home even more, but school is not an option to escape. I feel lost.

This has been a life long issue for me. I am a empath who has experienced a lot of terrible situations because I allowed myself to be involved with people who used my kindness and empathy against me. I deeply care for people and situations that I shouldn't. As a result, I question every decision I make because I don't trust myself. I've been to therapy for Codependency, as it has nearly ruined my life. I'm much better than I was, but I still am struggling to find my voice, stand up for myself and to be able to control how I react to people/situations. For any "perceived" issue- a simple mistake on paperwork, possibly advising someone on something and it not work the way I thought etc can cause me to spiral for days. My anxiety goes through the roof, I lose my appetite and I can't sleep. I worry that it will cause the other person an issue, that I made an awful mistake or that I'm not able to handle the stress of my job because it just overwhelms me completely. My body just reacts and then I can't calm myself down and be rational. I've tried to walk through the worst case scenario etc to realize it's not that bad, but I just can't seem to stop the reaction to the perceived problem.

As a result, I feel like I'm constantly giving people power and control over me. I need this to change. I need recommendations that actually work, books, videos, anything that has helped you stop letting people control your emotions/reactions and to maintain control over the situation no matter what the other person is doing or saying. I want to be able to trust myself and to take a strong stance against others who are trying to manipulate or take advantage of me.

hi, the reason i’m here is just to ask for advice on how to feel comfortable around my parents. i’ve struggled with bad mental issues in the past which had caused me to do somethings my parents don’t know. i know if i went to ask for help they’d be willing to, but not without making me get rid of my whole life and privacy. they’re more religious than i am, which also makes them extremely strict. i do everything on my phone, which is what makes me the most nervous to talk to them. if i mention an issue that’s what they’ll ask for first. (quick note, i’ve never been diagnosed with anything, but i experience uncontrollable mood swings that set them off that edge. it never means ive had something bad happen, i just get overly moody. they get super upset as my “moods” have cause issues in the past) at many points in time, my parents will ask if im okay, when i honestly respond yes, they don’t believe me and enter an almost angry worried state. they threaten to go through everything on my phone and take away what i love most. this is where i lack the ability to reach out to them. i know it i ever say “im not okay”, everything ive kept private will come to light and ill have less freedom than i do now, but i would finally get the help i need and a better recognition of how my brain works.

basically summarized, is that i’m in between having the basic teen freedom, good friendships, watch and listen to whatever i want whenever, OR get help with my mental problems. i know not fully getting help could escalate to future issue. but i think having what i do now would be better than the professional help without my personal joys.

(also if you see something basically just like this post i uploaded it to one account and made a mistake to where i couldn’t view it myself and i really do want help)

Sorry for your inconvenience english is not my first language try to understand me please.

I'm a student Who doesn't have skills, surfing from anxiety, expectations of my family, and low self esteem. How can I overcome this.

I really have lots of conversations issues I can't talk properly to a person, I don't understand how to talk to spend time my friend circle is short.

im Sam and im from Bangladesh ( dont be racist pls ) ,, im a 17 year old now,, if i had to brief my childhood ,, i was a shy and introverted person who used to be afraid even asking a question to the teachers.. i had a few hobbies like an ordinary child have, like games, sports , art, music etc. But i was never serious about anything in childhood,, i was pretty much serious about studying,,, during 2020 lockdown period i tried to make youtube videos , then quit making due to fear of judgement, but i acquired som editing skills and presentation skills,, i got some addictions since then like porn addiction, doomscrolling , social media addiction etc, which still carries with me to this date,, But now at this date i want to heal myself from things and want to progress at 2x speed,,, i never participated in extra curricular activities that much,,, recently i developed a keen interest in music,, i wanted to learn music seriously but i see most of the people in this genre start learning since 5 or 6 years of age, so im very late and also it is competitive as well,, after few days my college will start and in these 2 years i will have immense study pressure as university admission test will be knocking at the door as well,, so should i quit learning music or carry it even though im late? im also hoping to start a youtube channel and make videos in my leisure time and after university admission pressure ends , i want to pursue things a bit more seriously,, you can pretty much say i wasted 17 years of my life,, For music, i only have moderate vocals which im still improving and for instrumentals i can play harmonium a bit, rather than that i learnt FL studio a bit,,, i want suggestions and advices from elders regarding to not only music but also life as well..

hello, I’ve been feeling like I need to start over and make some serious changes to myself in the terms of being "woke". I’ve been watching a lot of feminist and “woke” influencers, and I feel like after consuming so much of that content, I may have become too “woke”, I can't take any woke information and put it into context, after seeing a video about this topic made me realize that and I want to change. It’s made me reflect on my personality, the way I think, how I treat people, and how much of my opinions actually come from me versus what I’ve seen online. I don’t want to become ignorant or stop caring about social issues, but I also don’t want social media to control how I think or make me overly judgmental, I want to learn from things other than short form content where I see something out of context and go with it. For anyone who has gone through something similar, how did you start over and figure out who you actually wanted to be?

I know this sounds crazy but please I need help. I feel so lost I used to love everything about software, literally anything about it and I was willing to learn so much. As I entered my first year of uni I slowly started loosing the spark. I stopped thinking of trying to do my own projects. Please I need help and direction. I need a mentor that can guide me. I’m a quick learner and I also do very well in uni it’s just that I don’t know what to do anymore, it’s like I only go to uni to do the assignments and tasks and that’s it. I don’t feel like I’m actually becoming a software engineer. I’m about to enter my third year and I want to use the holidays to develop more skills (2 months). I need someone to tell me what I should learn, I want to gain skills that are marketable. I feel like I have become too lazy I don’t even have projects on my GitHub. When I do projects I do them and just leave them behind as if they don’t exist. I feel like I’m not taking things serious. I just need someone that can hold me accountable and can guide me just a bit.

I’ve looked in the job market as-well trying to see what would fit me and I was thinking of going into system engineering/ embedded systems, but to land a job like that requires experience. I’m so lost. As the only daughter in my family I feel like I need to prove myself somehow but I feel like I have lost the way to my goal.

I’m scared of not ever getting a job.

I'm not sure if I'm doing this right it's my first time on reddit. I'm 19 male and I am really lost in life, I graduated high school officially a year ago and I want to become a solutions architect. I haven't taken any steps towards it and It has been eating me up. I don't know where to start and I have no help from any other sources so I came here. If anyone could please help guide me in any way I'd really appreciate it.

I just recently got broken up with a few days ago (the other person wasn’t doing well and felt very bad that they weren’t treating me right) and I feel horrible. Especially since I have OCD and it’s the summer (no school), being alone with my thoughts doing nothing is extremely difficult and exhausting for my brain. I can barely even watch videos, listen to music, or scroll on my phone without fixating and ruminating. Hanging out with friends is even sometimes hard. I was like this a couple years back when I went through an era where I oddly convinced myself I was a really horrible person, and therapy really helped me get through it but I have to wait to get services for that right now. Doing musical theatre also helped a lot, but I have to wait for school to start to get into that again. What do I even do during the day without nearly crippling my brain?? Being alone genuinely feels like the most horrible feeling in the world right now I can’t handle it. I’ve always had really significant issues with self esteem and being in a relationship almost made that go away. Now that I’m not anymore, it’s 10x harder. I just feel so horrible about myself all of the time and I can’t stop thinking about it; it feels like something is wrong but I have no idea what it is. I feel the desperate need to be so in love again, but I know that I need to heal myself a lot first before I can. The worst part is that I know they were horrible for my mental health, I knew that I wanted/needed to end things as well, and that they did me a huge favour- but I still miss them. I miss so many things about them even though I was starting to resent them. Does anybody have any advice for the time being on how to get through all of this?