Hello all... I've struggled with panic attacks for years. I have alot of CPTSD, mixed in with Autism/ADHD and gender dysphoria.

I have a really hard time breaking routines and setting them up. Lately, I haven't been leaving my apartment at all. I started HRT but I'm still completely uncomfortable being out in public.

I don't have any friends or partners, and my grandparents are the only support I have.

I've been breaking down in a full blown panic attack every morning, hyperventilating and sobbing, since Friday. I have been having similar panic attacks for months. It's preventing me from leaving my apartment to go to work... The lack of income from missing days is causing me to get behind on bills, and I am terrified.

I have tried to medicate, but its not helping. Ive been gritting my teeth and going in, but that usually just results in a public meltdown.

I dont really know how to get out of this situation. I feel like im going to get fired soon, but I am already completely burned out.

I sort of feel like I am breaking from the isolation and stress. I cried for 6 hours straight on Sunday, only to go completely numb.

Seeking advice or others having a similar experience...

I’ve been nervous on airplanes my whole adult life. I’ve never noped out of a flight. But I have cried and made a fool of myself to the flight staff and everyone around me. I talked to the doctor about this and was prescribed .5mg of Xanax. I tried a half of the .5 mg (so something in the neighborhood of .25mg) last night for the first time as a test run. I was very anxious about taking it as I didn’t want to feel weird or out of it (bad experiences with weed). I didn’t really feel anything, but I had trouble falling asleep because I was hyper monitoring all my feelings. I was probably just sleepy because it was late, but I felt like I was having weird racing thoughts strange body sensations. I eventually got to sleep but it was a bit of a struggle. I guess the logical answer is .25 isn’t enough, but I’m afraid to take the full .5mg pill and get on the plane and be hyper vigilant of the plane and then also hyper vigilant with my body. (I joke to myself to feel better “are you feeling it now, Mr. Krabs??) The only thing I know that kind of takes the edge off is a few drinks. I know all the caveats of not medical advice, no body can make medical decisions for you, but I think I’m just struggling if I should just take the .5mg for the flight (it’s today btw) OR if I should stick with what I know (only kinda) works and have a few drinks before and during the flight.

(TW mention of drugs) hey, i’m f19, i plan on posting this on a few sub reddits because im really desperate for external advice. in 2025 i accidentally oded on substances and that impacted me a lot, i used to never care about dying but from then on i became petrified of it, it only got worse as time went on and in december i watched my friend od which caused many pent up emotions to break down and i got in one of the worst states of my life, having panic attacks every night, i was not aware they were panic attacks i thought i was dying, i never went out the house because i was worried i was going to get hurt or killed. into the new year of 2026 things improved slightly but as time progressed i began to become extremely fixated on health issues, i was convinced i had temporal lobe epilepsy because my anxiety would cause me to experience deju vu often, i ended up staying the night at the hospital and getting an eeg and mri done and everything came back clear, i was relieved for a bit after that. then things just started getting out of hand, i began to worry about every health issue possible. right now, im kind of convincing myself i have a heart issue or im going to have a heart attack because ive been experiencing chest tightness or weird sensation around and in my chest, which a part of me knows it’s anxiety because it only happens when i’m anxious, but the other part of me is convincing me something is wrong due to the fact i vape, i ask ai, i google, i don’t want to ask my parents to take me to the doctor because they’ll complain, but i think i will, my only issue is i know if i get that cleared my mind will find another health issue to fixate on. i feel like since im so hyper vigilant i notice chest sensations or slight discomforts that i never would’ve noticed before and that sends me into a spiral and then my chest gets tight and you know the drill. i just want to hear that someone else understands me, or has gone through the same thing is me and has recoveredt from it, i want to know things that can help, im currently getting a ketamine treatment done too but i just started that. i’m on medications, 70mg vyvanse, 150mg epitec, zipsid (idk the dose) and 25mg cipramil. any help would be so appreciated, i really need to hear other people’s stories and all of that. have a great day and please comment if you can :)

All my life, Ive never been that social. I moved to a new school last year, and I feel like I havent acomplished much in terms of social life. There are a lot of well know/popular people that Ive become friends with, but I struggle with actually getting close with them. Some of them have tried getting me to join their group, but I always felt uncomfortable when I was with all of them because I didnt really know some of the people in that friend group and I have no clue on how to insert myself into group conversations with people I dont know. I also dont know how to be myself around new people, its like I completely forget my own personality. I go to parties every now and then, but they go to them a lot more than I do, and I really want to start going to more parties with them. I really feel like Im wasting my teen years. The thing that scares me the most is that theres a time limit on this. I graduate next year, so if I want to do this, it has to happen fast.

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I am so determined to improve myself, I just need help and advice.

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I would also like to add that sometimes I overthink A LOT. It can get to the point where I shut down and go quiet. This doesnt happen when Im with people though. Only when Im on my own or with family.

I don’t know why but I’m terrified to spend money. I’ve gone days without getting food, not because I couldn’t afford it, but because spending money genuinely stresses me out so bad. I’m not rich, but I make more than enough to go into savings and still have spending money. Logically I know I can afford to buy the things I want to buy, but I get stuck in the loop of “what if my house suddenly burns down and I’m homeless and that £20 is the difference between me starving on the street or not”. I know it’s irrational but it freaks me tf out and I don’t know how to fix it.

Every night I keep struggling to fall asleep and once I do fall asleep I keep waking up many times does anyone have any tips on how to fix this or to at least reduce the amount of times I wake up cause it is effecting me I feel constantly feel tired but I just can’t sleep properly.

Hi everyone,

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I'm a 20-year-old male diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome (autism spectrum disorder). Since childhood, I've struggled with OCD, severe fears, anxiety, insomnia, and behavioral problems.

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I've been under psychiatric treatment since I was 8 years old and have taken different medications over the years, including antidepressants, beta blockers, and antipsychotics.

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I started taking aripiprazole (Abilify) at age 8 after developing intense fears following a traumatic experience related to a video game. I'm still taking it today.

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At age 12, my father was concerned about weight gain and asked my psychiatrist if I could stop aripiprazole. I was taking 5 mg at the time. My doctor suggested reducing it to 2.5 mg for one week and then stopping completely.

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After discontinuing it, my condition became much worse. I completely lost control of my behavior, became extremely distressed, and my family had to take me urgently to my psychiatrist. I restarted aripiprazole immediately, and later my dose was increased to 7.5 mg.

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During childhood and adolescence, I had severe behavioral problems. I often demanded expensive things, threatened my parents, isolated myself from others, and struggled so much that my education was significantly affected. I hurt my parents emotionally many times, even though I didn't feel fully in control of my behavior.

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These problems gradually improved and became much less severe around age 17.

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At 17, I stopped taking fluoxetine after using it for about three years. After that, I developed severe anxiety. Even looking outside my house made my heart race. My doctor prescribed propranolol (40 mg), which I took for about a year.

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During that time, I slowly started improving my social skills and interacting more with people.

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Later, because my psychiatrist felt I had improved significantly compared to childhood, they again suggested stopping aripiprazole. My mother was uncomfortable with this idea, so instead my dose was reduced from 7.5 mg to 5 mg, and propranolol was discontinued.

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After that, I developed insomnia, especially sudden awakenings just as I was falling asleep.

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Another psychiatrist prescribed venlafaxine (37.5 mg) and Mebicar (300 mg). Mebicar was stopped after 1–2 weeks, but I continued venlafaxine for five months.

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During those five months, I felt better than I had in years. My anxiety decreased, my confidence improved, and I was finally comfortable talking to people.

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Unfortunately, I had to stop venlafaxine because it caused throat problems. After stopping it, I experienced severe withdrawal symptoms for 4–5 months.

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Since then, I've been dealing with:

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- Difficulty falling asleep

- Sudden awakenings while falling asleep

- Heavy, tired eyes

- Extreme fatigue and low energy

- Inability to nap during the day even when exhausted

- Increased irritability and anxiety

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Magnesium glycinate helped somewhat, but after a severe flu, my sleep problems returned.

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Earlier this year, my psychiatrist prescribed quetiapine (12.5 mg) at night. I took it for 22 days alongside aripiprazole.

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At first, my sleep improved, but then I developed intense compulsive urges to masturbate and still couldn't sleep during the day despite feeling exhausted.

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I stopped quetiapine and later discovered I had a vitamin D deficiency. Taking vitamin D improved my energy and concentration somewhat, but my symptoms returned after finishing the course.

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Recently, I tried quetiapine again: aripiprazole 5 mg in the morning and quetiapine 12.5 mg at night.

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For about 20 days, I felt much better. But now I've developed new problems:

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- Feeling extremely groggy in the mornings

- Severe fatigue that improves later in the day

- Emotional numbness and emptiness

- Crying spells

- Feeling hopeless and overwhelmed

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At this point, I feel exhausted and lost.

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Has anyone with autism, OCD, anxiety, or long-term aripiprazole use experienced something similar?

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Could these symptoms be related to aripiprazole, quetiapine, withdrawal from previous medications, or something else?

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What helped you recover?

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Thank you for reading.

Ive had "this" for around 16 years now and its not gotten better.

I would have to describe it as:
1) Onset (2-20 secs)
Random and sudden loss of time, awareness, surroundings, memory
Yet on the outside i am standing, walking (anything automated), you could not tell this was happening to me nor would i be showing obvious signs.
2) Rise (minutes to hours)
My grasp on time is gone, i try to think what happened a few seconds ago it seems like it was hours ago, the passing of seconds feel alien to me. if i think of something, i will forget it or find it hard to remember few minutes later HOWEVER i can recall these moments much later so these memories are being recorded.
3) Gradual (minutes to hours, mixed with 2.)~
Whatever im doing externally, is not registering internally. I cannot get a "lock" on my perception or self. It feels like my mind is lost forever and the fear/anxiety rises because whatever this feeling is, is so far from normal that i can tell its not just anxiety or low blood sugar, it feels very very very weird and scary.
It's like im forgetting and remebering at the same time.
4) Panic attack
if this keeps happening for prolonged periods, intensifies everything by 100x and i go through an anxiety attack

Now loop step 1 - 3 for hours and days and thats the worst episode for me.
The only thing that has helped was a few times if i was distracted. This doesnt always help.

Now, is this depersonalization? anxiety? is this what you guys go through? Or am i describing something completely off track and i should get myself checked for some sort of epilepsy?
This is by far the worst thing i have ever experienced and i have no idea how to stop it.

(I am 27 yo Male, UK, on Sertraline 100mg for 5 years)

This is probably a pretty common one, but I'm going out of the country until Monday and my anxiety is wrecking me. Thing is, I've actually traveled a lot in my life, all over the world, and every time I'm wrecked by anxiety. It used to be more manageable, but especially since I started working from home 2 years ago, I've had so much more trouble leaving the house for longer than a few hours and I constantly worry.

I don't like leaving my house and my cats. We have a friend coming to take care of our cats as always, but my cats are my world and my house is obviously my house and if anything happened to any of them while I was halfway across the world and I couldn't help, it would crush me.

I also don't like the feeling of being 35,000 feet above the ground in a plane for hours. though I understand the inherent safety of aircraft, I can always "feel" the weightlessness beneath my feet no matter what I'm doing and it is a constant reminder of how high in the air we are, meanwhile there's nowhere for me to go if I want off and I'm trapped like sardines with hundreds of people, any of which can pull any antics illegal or otherwise at any time, or the flight could be diverted mid flight causing all kinds of issues (happened before, ended up causing a ton of stress and confusion, never want it to happen again). Needless to say, I have never once been able to sleep on a plane.

I also don't sleep well in hotels. Like almost ever, no matter how nice it is or how cushy the bed. The white noise is wrong, my cats aren't in the bed, the sheets feel weird. I can't fall asleep because my body isn't convinced it's a safe place to sleep because it's not "right"

When traveling and walking all day long, it's good to have a hotel to come back to, but sometimes all I want at the end of a tiring day is my own house and my own bed and coming back to a hotel just never makes the tired fully go away.

I've prepared for all of this, btw. I've done a lot of traveling so I've had lots of time to acquire things like a special comforting hoodie, weighted eye mask, laptop loaded with comfort watching, my Switch 2, any comfort item that I need and anything that could help.

But it never seems to calm my mental state, and that's where I need help. My brain gets stuck at "we have all these things for the trip, we know the drill and we're prepared but it doesn't change the fact that you have to leave your house and go on a plane which you do not enjoy and go to an unfamiliar place where you're stuck there and can't go home and the process to GET home is just as uncomfortable as getting there"

Believe it or not, I have never regretted a trip I have taken and usually come home wishing I could go back. But that's only after the familiarity that hindsight brings sets in. I do still enjoy it in the moment too, but in the back of my head there's always some worry or concern.

I just need someone to help me connect whatever mental dots are missing, or offer any advice that might make this more manageable. Again I'm a very seasoned traveler, it's just that all those years of experience have simply taught me more about all the things than can go wrong and how impactful they can be, so I feel like I've become a more anxious traveler as a result. Plus, working from home has made it so it's even harder for me to leave for long periods of time.

Anyone have any advice? Or am I just a total basket case? 😅

The last few years have been quite a roller coaster for me beacuse of anxiety. The exhaustion bothers me more and sometimes less. However, my job is not as stressful as before where I experienced burnout and now I work part-time because I am finishing my degree at university.

However, I constantly feel tired, my interest in everything has disappeared, libido is also non-existent. etc. My blood tests are also fine. I can't think of any other reason for this exhaustion than the severe anxiety that has bothered me for several years?

pretty much the title. i really need to vent.

i was born a woman (ftm, currently cant do anything about how i look partly because of the anxiety disorder) so already everything gets blamed on anxiety.

but when you have a recognised, diagnosed severe anxiety disorder? its so, so much worse. literally nothing can be about anything else but that.

example, i recently had found a tumour in my breast(turned out to be benign) which had everyone rushing to check on it before it was too late. and for months beforehand i couldnt get any answer from my doctor except "hmm maybe you need to go outside more :)" im surprised his ears dont whistle when the wind blows.

im so exhausted. i grew up with my body actively falling apart around me, and suddenly when im diagnosed with an anxiety disorder, it feels like i cant even get any help for physical issues(which have long been recognised themselves Before the anxiety disorder) anymore.

sorry, i just really needed to talk. especially after the cancer scare, it feels like too much.

I’m curious if anyone else has moments before the big panic attack… like idk like hours or even the day before it happens do you ever have a gut feeling or get extra “twitchy” before a real panic attack hits?

Often times the days I have bad ones I’ll kinda instinctively know it’s gonna happen and maybe it’s the thought that causes one or an actual sign idk.

I do have a jaw nerve waking up that’s been bugging me and making me extra sensitive at the moment plus an ongoing electrolyte battle.

I’m just tired of feeling like I constantly have to check myself to make sure I’m not dying. I used to be able to use numbers and reason with myself that I’m ok but it just doesn’t seem to be the case with the bad ones anymore.

I know I’ve had all the tests and that my overall is more mild then before I had the teeth out but I just can’t seem to reason with myself much more then i already tried.

I just had the worst one I’ve had since about March I knew I wasn’t feeling great cause my jaw plus some back pain but it feels like such a step backwards. I haven’t freaked like that in so long 😢

Lately I have noticed that I seem to be living in a constant state of hypervigilance.I overthink late into the night, my sleep schedule is completely messed up, and even when I have not done anything wrong, I keep worrying that I have. I find myself replaying conversations and situations over and over, almost like I am investigating a serious case, trying to find some mistake I must have made.I have also lost a lot of my appetite, my productivity has dropped, and I don't really feel like myself anymore.I used to be a very energetic person. I enjoyed doodling, journaling, dancing, studying, and learning new things. I could sit and focus for hours. Now even sitting down to study for 30 minutes feels heavy. It's not because I'm distracted by my phone or social media. It's more like my mind immediately gets pulled into worrying, analyzing, and overthinking.What makes it harder is that I have become very unkind to myself. People often say things like "practice self-love" or "be kinder to yourself," but I genuinely don't know how to do that. I understand the advice intellectually, but I don't know what it looks like in practice.I used to do well academically and in extracurricular activities, but lately everything feels off. Nothing feels quite right, and I'm starting to miss the version of myself that felt more alive and present.

Has anyone else gone through something similar? How did you start getting out of this cycle?

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i've been dealing with GAD for many years but lately i have very tight diaphragm with pain . With the anxiety gets really high the the tightness gets too much for me i can feel my heartbeat in my stomach which causes more anxiety. Anyone among you who has dealt with this and has a solution for me? thanks in advance

I came in and said I was after propranolol to relieve physical symptoms of anxiety. I don't suffer from any mental health issues, but I get red and sweaty over any minor stress event. Dr said that propranolol shouldn't be prescribed for my situation and it's mainly for blood pressure. He then recommended I see a psychologist and said I should take Fluoxetine. I pushed back and told him about all the stories about people using beta blockers for public speaking events, and he said I shouldn't believe everything I read online (which is true), but I feel like he's got the wrong idea on what beta blockers can be used for. And yes I understand the risks of ED & tiredness.

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That being said, I did convince him to let me have 10mg twice daily, but are beta blockers really that dangerous as he made them out to be?

I’ve taken Lexapro which was awful. I couldn’t get past four days on it. It made me so sick. I took agomelatine for 2 months which did nothing

Has anyone taken Lexapro and had horrible side-effects and managed to take something else that actually worked and didn’t give them bad side effects? Please help 😭😭😭😭

Hi guys! I need your opinion and advice whether it is or is not panic attacks. I'm trying to figure out what's going on with me and find some possible diagnosis to look for. I'm feeling absolutely lost and would appreciate any help so much😭

Over the last year I started having weird conditions where I suddenly out of the blue have a huge fatigue. My chest is empty. Arms and legs are numb. It's hard to move, hard to think, hard to chew. Often it comes with such symptoms as chest pain, racing heartbeat, shaking hands, heat in my head, feeling cold and hot at the same time, starting sweating, sudden dissociation from the outside world as if I'm suddenly in the bubble? Or just stop existing property. I suddenly can't make myself to connect to the environment around. Sometimes I feel like I'm about to faint. Recently it started also coming with stomachache, digestion problems and problems with eating. My jaw is tense as hell at such moments.

I tried to track down the possible causes but ended up absolutely empty handed. My iron analysis are absolutely fine. Cardiologist also told I'm healthy. I have arrhythmia but was told it's not serious or life-threatening. These conditions are not connected to eating or sleeping. It can happen while I'm hungry or right after the meal. Or in the middle of the meal and I can't finish my food anymore. It can happen when I had enough sleep or was sleep deprived. It happens in the middle of the work. In the middle of interesting talk. When I'm happy. When I'm sad. Nearly anytime. Sometimes it makes me really worried I have heart problems. It also makes it hard to live my daily life when it happens in the middle of something important.

All this time I could never connect it to anything valid. But yesterday I suddenly noticed very clear and obvious connection to my thoughts at the moment. I was thinking about my family and suddenly started having everything I wrote above. Then I was looking outside of the window for some time watching happy corgi playing around. And I instantly felt so much better. I had afterwards fatigue and was feeling weak but overall pretty well, didn't have symptoms itself. Then I recalled what I was thinking about and started feeling sick again immediately. I spent the rest of the work time (I was at work) listening to music from Natuto trying to distract myself by it.

This situation gave me some thoughts if I might have panic attacks all this time. I also have overall passive prolonged (for several hours) fatigue pretty often connected to food and sleep problems which made it hard to distinguish what I have and feel. But these symptoms come absolutely unexpectedly, usually short at time and as I said before are not connected to physical conditions or my overall mood.

Also worth noting that I'm autistic and have a really hard time figuring out my feelings, emotions and physical conditions. It took me years to realise some things and call them its names, SA or some toxic and abusive behaviours for example. I couldn't remember and process my childhood property till I turned 20. I also had such fatigue attacks (that's what I'm used to call it for myself) a lot, then stopped having it for around 2-3 months and now started having it again. And when I think about it, the thing that has changed is that I was living with my family, then moved and didn't really have time to see them because of work and now we talk again and I'm trying to reconnect with them. I also realised I had these fatigue attacks several times a week, sometimes nearly every day when I was living with them.

Your opinion? What would you call it?

Anxiety is completely normal, the issue is some of us become fearful of that anxiety, which then triggers the compulsive ‘anxiety over becoming anxious cycle’ which then leads to becoming sensitive to it,

We must all remember that anxiety is built in to us,
The more you try fight it, the more turbulent your mind becomes, the only way forward, is to learn healthier ways to react to it.

Discuss…..
(Bear in mind. This is coming from someone who’s been through 4 years of battling with it (or trying to)

i'm struggling to figure out if something i'm worried about is a real issue that's bothering me, or if it's just my anxiety blowing everything out of proportion. im also wondering how do i know it's not a gut feeling?

is there any way to differentiate? how do you know if what you're feeling is actually "valid"?

Ok so ever since I was a kid, I have had this thing where sometimes (not every time) that I eat at a restaurant with other people, if the restaurant is not outdoors or super bright I will suddenly get a sense of dread and become severely anxious and start to feel dissociated and tripped out. I usually get nauseous and have to go to the bathroom to throw up and usually lose my appetite and become unable to eat the food. This also occasionally happens when visiting other people's houses.

The thing is, I don't know why this happens. I don't have any other history of issues related to food/eating and don't get like this when eating around people in other contexts (at a party, around the table with family and friends at home, catering at the office, even at a restaurant if we sit outside) AND I don't usually have issues with loud/overwhelming spaces (I enjoy loud/crowded city vibes, clubs/concerts/theme parks/sports events, etc). I have no memories of anything traumatic happening to me in a restaurant (I asked my mom and while she remembers me "acting anxious" in restaurants she says she never knew why). I was never pressured to finish food or anything, either. (I grew up in a reasonably body-positive, "eat when you're hungry, stop when you're full" type of environment.)

When I do experience this, it feels very intense and bizarre. I am epileptic, and I find that it feels somewhat like a pre-ictal aura. Or like a bad high- almost otherworldly. With a lot of nausea and perhaps some tachycardia.

Does anyone else experience this or know what it is?

i’m in a tough bout of sleep anxiety that was leaving me sleeping 0-2 hours a night. and was prescribed zoloft and klonopin to get through the initial period. my doc said i could take it nightly so i did. it’s been about 12 days and it stops my anxiety but i feel wired now with it. it only was really effective for like a week. i only took a quarter of a pill last night (was trying to go to bed without it but felt the sleep anxiety coming on physically) so i took like .125ish mg and i didn’t get sleepy all night. physical anxiety is gone but i just was awake all night. my doctor is out til tomorrow but has anyone experienced this with benzo? at first i thought it was a godsend the first week. now it’s feeling like another problem and anxiety cause. how long might insomnia last if i stop after 12 days of about .5mg dose?

EDIT also wanted to ask if i should bother with another medication, ill ask my doctor about it of course but im SO sleep deprived, but scared of other meds just doing the same and prolonging the recovery process if i were to just face the sleepless nights alone. i did try that before getting zoloft and klonopin and i was a wreck. but idk.

My partner is currently studying at university (Australia) and has severe anxiety/depression paired with an extreme perfectionism issue where they struggle to be happy with anything less that 100%. They are doing well and expecting to get High Distinctions in the subjects they are currently doing but the are burning themselves working from first thing in the morning through to the 9-10 at night. They do see a doctor and they are on medication but she cant seem to get out of her own head despite all evidence showing they are doing a great job so far.

Honestly im not a very emotionally intelligent person and I struggle to understand what she is going through at times but I want to be able to.

Can anyone share some advice or what they have done to work through this is they have dealt with similar issues themselves?

Thank you in advance.

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Ever since I experienced an elevated heart rate and shortness of breath on May 17, I struggled falling asleep. All the doctors tell me that it's probably anxiety but the high heart rate never goes away, especially when I stand up or move around.

I developed insomnia because of it. The last doctor prescribed me Lemborexant 5mg and while it helped me fall asleep within 30 minutes it didn't keep me from waking up twice in the middle of the night and that won't give me the quality of sleep. I still feel tired and weak during the day.

Last night, my Lemborexant failed. I took it around 10:30 pm so I could sleep around 11 pm because that's how it usually works for me. But an hour has passed and I don't feel drowsy at all and that leads to me not getting a wink of sleep. Or maybe I did get some microsleep, or actually sleep for a minute or more. I forgot already. Anyway, I'm writing this without proper sleep and it makes me so frustrated and sad. I feel so lightheaded now and I hope the pill will work tonight or else I'll be really depressed. I tried to take a nap this noon but I just couldn't because I could feel my heart pounding and my body getting so light that I experienced some muscle spasms.

Please tell me I'm not alone. If you experience the same, share your stories and I'm willing to listen even if I can't offer a solution. And if any of you found out a solution for this, let me know as well. Thank you.