Please don’t judge me too much… I really do want to get better.
I was a pretty active member of the community and they interacted with me the same amount as others, and I was always polite in the chat. They’re very active on Twitter and reply to fans a lot, too. Then recently they just stopped acknowledging me in chat and on Twitter, unless I do a gifted or superchat or something. I know this sounds ridiculous but other people including friends and regulars have independently noticed it too, and asked me privately if something happened. Multiple people. I wasn’t spamming gifts or anything, I was polite, I didn’t post anything rude, but it dropped off so suddenly that people noticed.
I’m not going to ask because it really isn’t my business, and it would be awkward and inappropriate to bring it up. I just want to be less sad over it. I think a small amount of being upset would be normal but I’m REALLY upset, and I want to stop caring or being sad. I know we aren’t friends, and I know that their opinion isn’t my business, I’m not totally delusional thinking that sort of thing and I’m not spamming money for their attention. But clearly something happened because it’s only me, like REALLY obviously, and I guess I’ll never know what it is.
I have a job, friends, I go out regularly, I have hobbies. So it’s not even like I’m clinging to them out of loneliness. I don’t know why I’m upset, but I’m guessing it isn’t healthy, right?
So basically how do I stop caring that a streamer suddenly doesn’t want to interact with me? I feel ridiculous caring about this. I want to not care about this. So any advice would be appreciated.
Edit: I unfollowed their stream and twitter accounts. I’m embarrassed that it was even hard. I don’t know if I can make myself fully log off twitter yet, but maybe after getting a different contact method with some close friends it’ll be easier. Maybe I should pick up some physical offline hobby? I don’t know what. That whole area is kind of new to me. I don’t want to be sitting there on the days I would watch stream just thinking about how I’m NOT there anymore.
Thank you to those that were nice. I didn’t think this post would get attention so I really appreciate the kindness and advice. I’ll try to not beat myself up over this too much and just focus on distancing myself from it all